I may have completely fucked up a second chance. Help is appreciated!
Ok ill lay out the story. Its a little odd and a bit lengthy.
Ill start out by saying that im your stereotypical nice/shy guy. 23yo (M) and a virgin at the time. A good looking woman needs something, I'm there (my downfall). I work in the food service industry as a line cook. One day about a year ago a new server started working there. This woman is a solid 10. Drop dead GORGEOUS. We never really talked when she first started working there (shyness). A few months pass and we slowly start talking. Nothing really sexual. We started to become pretty good friends. I find out that she has had a VERY sexual past (she is 29). One night when business was pretty slow, she comes back to the hot line and starts flirting with me out of nowhere. HARD. Like spank me with a spatula type stuff. Late edition, she had a boyfriend at the time. I had no idea what i was doing. Pulling out awful lines that didn't work ect. But i enjoyed the hell out of myself. I remember getting back to my car after the shift ended and getting a text from her saying "I don't know what im gonna have to do for you to make a move on me." I was so torn with her having a boyfriend. "Its only a matter of time before i corrupt you." She said. I don't wanna be a home wrecker but just keep reading. Later on in the week, we start going to the bars. More flirting commences and i start to open up and have a good time. This becomes a Saturday ritual for the whole month of January. During the week she would come to my place and we would watch movies and hang out. Started innocent at first then my arm around her, then her laying down with her head resting on my leg, then eventually spooning. The spooning led to make out sessions which led to me fingering her on my couch. I thought that was as far as it was going to go until we got home from the bar one night and it just kinda happened. For me being a virgin the sex gods must have been in my favor. She didn't know i was a virgin. i played it out like i wasn't. Pulled off the one handed bra snap amongst other little things. We start to get into it and it is really passionate (to me at least). Just the best sex you could think of. Little hair pulling. Some biting (its the little things for me). We make out heavily and masturbate each other for awhile then she gets on top and the deed gets underway. About 10 minutes into it, she gets a pretty powerful orgasm. I was so damn happy! I thought i was going to be just awful my first time. I thought i was going to be in it for 2 minutes then the deed would be over. To my surprise, I lasted about 20. I still cant believe it to this day. When it is over we go outside to smoke a cigarette. "You finally corrupted me. Are you happy now?" I say with a satisfied tone. She just replies with a huge smile. Her bf didn't really matter to me anymore (awful person i know). We continue our Saturday ritual of bar hopping and movie watching. I asked her what she saw in me one night. She said "The whole nice/shy guy thing is what turned me on." One Saturday after we came back from the bar we were sitting on the couch talking and i cant remember what i did for the life of me and she called me a nice guy. When i heard that something just ran through me. I just got so angry cause ive heard that all my life. Next i say nine words that i wish with every fiber of my being that i could take back. "Being a nice guy has never got me laid." As soon as the words left my mouth i knew i was going to regret what i said. She looks at me with a blank face that just screamed "really...." We watch a show on Netflix then she leaves soon after. I couldn't stop apologizing when she was leaving. Since then things haven't been the same between us. She no longer works at my job so i don't see her like i used to. We go out for lunch every once in awhile and maybe go for a drive but that's it. We have still remained good friends and she gives me shit about what i said to this day and it kills me because i fucked up something awful. Whenever we part from lunch or whatever, she says that she misses me and she still wants to watch movies with me. Knowing what watching movies leads to i get damned confused because i thought the sexual desire was out the window because of my drunk dumbass. Ive been trying to get back into her good graces ever since and it doesnt seem like im getting anywhere. OK so here is my question. I'm about to move to another state in September. Is there even a possibility of me hooking back up with her again before i move? or is it a lost cause? I really hope my stupidity didn't fuck things up for one last go around.
TR;DL Had sex with a 10, fucked it up, wondering if i have another shot before I move. Thanks guys!
Posted Jun 24, 2012, 2:37 AM UTC