Fucking Insomnia

Been trying to dry out (somewhat) and have insomnia... I've slept three hours out of the past 72... and I just tried making some Lime Kool_Aid for mix for the rest of my Arrow Vodka; cut my debit card up so I wouldn't relapse and go to the... other side... was trying to make Lime Kool Aid and dropped a cup of sugar on the floor. Gonna rock the rest of this fifth into me, take some of the GF's Valium, some of my Ambien, and smoke a bowl of roaches to try and pass out for more than an hour. Hip pain is bad, it's been a week since I took a narcotic. Just filled the rest of the fifth with water, sucking it down. Should be out socializing, a rare Saturday night off. Cancelled my client and band practice for the day/night. Not gonna eat tonight, puking up whatever I ate the night before in the morning, along with 2-3 cups of bile is getting old. Cheers, fuckfaces.