Went to a Reddit meetup today. Didn't go well.

I ended up going alone because I couldn't find a friend to come with and I knew I'd regret it if I didn't go.

There had to be 100 people there. I wanted someone to talk to, but it seemed everyone else came with at least one person. Everyone was standing in small groups and I was just awkwardly standing alone the entire time. Only one person introduced themselves to me at the very beginning and that was the only person I said a sentence to. I was one of the first people there because I thought it'd be easier to meet people early.

After graduating college last year and having most of my old friends move away, I was hoping I'd finally make a new friend here. I kind of lost hope after this meetup since I thought Reddit would be a great place to meet someone who gets who I am. I like the way I look, I just have trouble initiating conversation and I think in my head about everything. I'm just sitting at home on another Saturday night trying to teach myself programming. Just needed to let this out.. thanks for reading.