im cornered

I just can't do right. It's not so much that I'm depressed but that I keep hurting the people I care most about. I used to think I didn't have friends, that no one would love me, that my parents didn't care about me, so fucking narcissistic. I've been slowly seeing how wrong I am as I realize how immature I've been, how no matter how hard I try to do the world good, I end up doing the wrong thing, harming people I love. I wrote a note. I think it's perfect but something about the last line kept ringin in my ears..

I reached for a razor out of my knife set (art student, go figure) and would have started, but I saw the blade I wanted to use and it wouldn't come out of the box...