I'm scared...someone...please help....

I'm just so scared. I can't remember the last time I took my meds. I feel like I'm coming apart at the seams. It feels like my therapy isn't working, and I feel like I'm self-sabotaging. And there's only one way I can think of stopping it, but I'm too scared. I have such a good life, and I'm so very blessed, I should be happy and shouldn't be such a whiny little bitch about everything.

Pardon me while I jump off a cliff into the sea of shitty emotions ._.

Edit: I want to thank every single person who has commented on this. You guys mean the world to me, and prove my negative thinking wrong in that random strangers, who don't know me at all, care about me. I plan on following y'all's advice, and I'm gonna come back here if I ever feel this way again, to remind myself that people care.

TL;DR: You guys are awesome. I love you all :3