I'm giving up...

Hello fellow Redditor's, I cannot continue this journey of pain and agony, I sit and watch those around me watch as I bleed on the floor crying for help. I've walked for years yearning for a friend, someone who can cry can talk, can see, can feel, can bleed, and can love. I've lost all my reason to sit on the rock and believe I can find Nirvana but even that is lost to me. I have fought and hurt many, I have received my pain equal to theirs. I've climbed to face my fears all to fall down again. Family seeks a genius, an artist, a fighter, a worker, and a uniformed child of only obedience to the world, but they see a rebel who fights all who help, those that try only cause more pain and give deceiving looks to fool a weak soul into submission. I was told the truth to happiness is the taint of a passion, and that passion would bring me love, but that taint of passion has pushed away those I want to love only to attract those that fear me, see a cautionary sign of destruction. My name is Taint for I am tainted with the destructive power of my mind my own world. This is not a goodbye but a signing off, I love this but its time for me to disappear into the mist of the world into the sky's the waters, and let my body guide me as my mind wonders to discover who I am and what. This is taint signing off.