I've missed so much, so many opportunities, and regret it every day. FUCK PORN. Must vent.

I started like most kids - Discovered porn when I was 12-13 (now 25) online, and fapped to the most basic stuff available. Soon, I was getting deeper and deeper, downloading more and more, fapping as much as I could with crazier and crazier porn, not understanding what I was doing to myself. I was still super outgoing and personable at school, so I had a few girls interested in me, but I was too GOD DAMN scared to go for it. After conditioning myself for years to be only comfortable getting off to porn, I didn't think I had it in me to get with a girl. I EVEN GOT OFFERED TO BE IN A THREESOME WITH 2 PRETTY HOT GIRLS!! AND I FUCKING TURNED IT DOWN!!! I was at the age where I should've jumped all over that opportunity, but instead, I fucking stayed home and jacked off to some god damned fake women. I'm CERTAIN that if I had the right chemicals flowing in my head, I would've had the balls to go for it with girls (and succeed). My limbs start to go numb when I sit still and think about those days. And I was in such INSANE denial that I didn't even think that fapping 2 times a day was causing me severe issues. I continued on, fapping constantly, until now. I had a serious girlfriend for 5 years, and I NEVER was able to put on a condom and have sex with her. I have EXTREME ED now, when it comes to having sex, but not for too much longer. I'm sick (literally, it makes me sick to my stomach) of fucking feeling this way about myself, and I'm sick of not having any confidence when it comes to girls. I swear on my life I'm not going to look back on this time in my life and regret anymore about my porn-watching, fapping habits. I'm going to change. I'm on day 3 (I got my badge late), and I'm feeling like a fucking rockstar. I haven't committed myself to anything like this in a long time, and it's all because of YOU all that I'm doing it. If I would've never stumbled onto this sub-reddit, I'd probably be sitting in the dark watching some fucking porn with a half-hard dick in my hand right now. But no more, I'm done, and I love the empowering feeling it's giving me to consciously say FUCK YOU PORN, ONCE AND FOR ALL.

Fapstronaut - Out