Ambien Courage

For the last few days I've been missing you a lot and every time I do, I remind myself that for the last eight months we had only drifted further and further apart. This last break up didn't even require the exchange of stuff.

So, every time I feel sad, disappointed, ashamed, or depressed about myself for failing in yet another relationship. I just remember how we were slowly pulling away from each other. I keep the little mantra running through my had: DONT FORGET how far apart YOU were. Don't forget how far apart WE were.

You send me cute emails about the animals but you only care about my cat and not my salacious soul that you used to pound from behind.

I need more of a connection. And with a strong connection, will come trust. I want someone who will be vulnerable enough to show me who he really is and I want to do the same. It's such a magical feeling, I've felt it before; I was fartin' rainbows and sprinkle cookies!! I NEED IT BACK!

OK. Pity party is over.

Where are the keys? The Walrus needs to drive me to the bar.

No keys? Ask the cat...