This is a cry for help.

This is me telling the internet that I don't want to live anymore.

I've been crying all night. I did not know that being a human could hurt so much. How do I stop the hurt? There are so many people on this earth that it's silly to feel alone but I really do. The only friend I have is a drug dealer who is unreliable at best. My former closest friend disowned me and rightfully so. I disappointed him. We had some issues and I got his family and his place of employment involved while I was hysterical. I humiliated myself. I hate myself for being crazy. I hate myself for never doing the right thing or even having a clue what the right thing to do is.

I'm uncomfortable, awkward, embarrassed to be in my own skin. I don't want to wake up tomorrow. I want to quit everything, just quit. I have no more fucks to give about what happens.

There. I said it.