Don't want to sleep again, ever. In dire need of help!

It's the second night I've dreamt about it. I love babies! I have no problem with them at all, but in the first dream I had I was apparently miraculously pregnant (I am 16), and it turned out the baby was retarded, and I was awful! I kept saying I didn't want it and to kill it etc. which is horribly disturbing! This second one, last night, I don't remember a whole lot of. All I know is there were 2 or three babies and I kept doing horrible things to them (they kept turning into dolls, so I would twist the arm at the shoulder round and round) Its really disturbing me and I want to make it stop! I should add in the dreams I feel no guilt, I almost sadistically enjoy it, but that's NOTHING like me in real life!

I'm on medication at the moment that makes me dream a lot, like, every night. I don't want to go to sleep now, I'm scared.

The only things I can think of that might cause these dreams (subconscious wise) are that I've recently gotten serious with my first proper boyfriend, but I don't know why that would be because I was looking forward to it.