I need help quitting, I need your advice. My shit is fucked up. Tapering off isn't working for me.

I'm doing the tapering off method, it worked, till I tried to sleep. I felt nothing but anger and wanted to punch the wall. My mind could not shut off, all I think about is how angry I am at my situation. I'm up now, drinking another one just to let it kick in to pass out, but the fact of realizing that I've been drinking all fucking day with little results is making me more angry and wanting me to drink more.

I'm thinking of riding tomorrow through. Just let myself puke and deal with it all day till night, the shakes, the sweats, all that shit. I can deal with it during the day, at night, the fucking depression kicks in, just like when I go cold turkey. I'm going to go swimming to burn some energy off. Then, when night hits, drink less than I did today as soon as possible, feel something, then crash. I know myself enough to know that I can ride this out and this is just the withdrawals. Fuck, it's hitting hard too early this time around, not used to it, I can usually ride it out till night time, but now it hits in the afternoon. My biggest concern is getting the DT's, the serious withdrawals, if I follow this plan, from what I can tell, I will be in a world of shit but not freak out too hard, is this correct?

Bottom line, if I can't do it by the weekend, I'm going to have to hit my family up and ask them for help, which means me asking for them to pay for rehab. I don't want to do that, I can do it on my own, I just need reassurance or a better plan. Sorry for another bullshit blog post, I love you guys. I know by asking you I won't get some bullshit answer, that's why I ask. Sorry for my bullshit the past few days.

Edit: Sorry for the post, I'm doing better. I get super emotional when I start to detox off the booze so I over-acted.

Double edit: I fucked up. Do not drink when you have lorazepam, a benzo, if you want to avoid DT's, lorazepam will prevent them for you. Fuck I'm stupid, thank you so much strangesobriety. The meds are working good enough as it is, I was afraid of the DT's, no reason to now. http://www.namihelps.org/assets/PDFs/fact-sheets/Medications/Ativan.pdf