4 hours since last shot...Im going to post every few hours..ive had enough

My boyfriend and I have been using for a year.. i make good money, however I blow +/- 400 a day in a combo of roxis/heroine between the 2 of us .. so I'm broke ALL the time.We currently live in a hotel room b/c there is no upfront fee for move in and i cant afford to pay to turn on utlilties.I need to get my shit together and NOW. Boyfriend cant get a job bc his arms look like death, and im sick of watching literally thousands of dollars go down the drain every week. If only I saved what I was spending, I could have a really decent life instead of this hell hole im living. I don't want to get up in the morning w/o dope. I cant sleep at night wo dope.I get high, go to work, get done with work get high till i pass out and the same process over and over. I want a normal decent life. I dont even know what its like to be normal anymore.. I have used drugs off and on for the past 8 years.. but it only got bad, like everyday use for a year now. I know that this is going to be hard. Please guys help give me some support.. I have to be strong for myself and for my boyfriend.. I HAVE TO KICK.. this is going to be my first real attempt.. I have 300.. im hoping to go to work tomorrow b4 the withdrawals are too bad, make around 500, and take a week off for the both of us to detox.. I just looked into a free 7 day gym membership bc I heard going into the sauna and hot tub really help.. wish me luck..ill be posting in a few more hours

EDIT :::okay well it is 11 AM.. work up around 10ish to boyfriend asking to go get dope.. he had been passed out the whole time I was up posting and hours before.. i guess thats what got me to thinking really..anyway.. i told him no.. that i had simply had enough of this.. and that I was going to make a serious heart felt effort to quit.. I went back to sleep and woke up to dude trying to go through my wallet which i sleep with for safe keeping..He says its time to pay for the room.. I give him the 40ish dollars to pay for the room and go back to sleep not thinking anything of it.. I have since been awoken to house keeping... I still have money.. so i went down and paid for the room for another nite.. and i called dope dealer.. no not for myself.. to see if he had seen boyfriend.. sure enough they had met up almost an hour ago.. he expected him to be back.. i kinda gave him the situation.. he offered to help me however he could subs/ not seeling more to dude.. hes got my car and my phone.. and im not sure where in the hell he is.. i need my shit back.. he has no money of his own.. and no place to go.. I live where its hot as hell outside.. noone would want to drive around with no ac.. i suppose sooner or later hell show back up.. and then what?

EDIT::: so, not surprising.. he showed back up..i told him i was leaving him took all my stuff from the room and went out.. he didnt say a word to me.. its sad that ive gotten so caught up in drugs that i have alienated just about every friend i have. I tried to get ahold of the few friends that I still have and all were busy with their own lives and jobs since it is a workday during normal business hours. I went to get a tire bc mine was flat as hell.. I felt lonely and depressed and drove around for an hour before i ended up giving in