first time posting ever just need to let it out sorry for crappy spelling and grammar errors

basicly life has been pretty down lately ummm i dont know where to start really well i am 20 years old i am unemployed and i dropped out of high school at 18 and have tried to get my GED but hasent worked out for me everytime i try to find a place that does it cheap they always run out of spots before i get there but yeah so theres that i recently just lost my sister she died due to complications from a surgery for her heart since she has had heart problems all her life i lost her she really was the best thing in my life she always would help me and always be there for me now i lost one of the things i needed and cared about most im in a long distance relationship she has not talked to me in days and its sorta just been pretty bad i dont know if she wants to break up or anything i just dont know i feel pretty down right now i really have no friends i lost most of my friends due to being on the comp all the time and me pushing them away so thats my fault and i have no excuse for it just figured id post here i needed to get this off my chest its really hard dealing with all these feelings by myself thank you for letting me post here anyways im off thanks for everything