I cut myself for the first time yesterday.

I cut myself for the first time yeterday. I had just had an argument with my mum. She told me I was useless for not doing the housework properly, and she seriously wanted to kick my step-dad and I out. She was really stressed, and I understand, but for the first time, I took it to heart.

I went into my room, grabbed a pair of scissors and started cutting my arms. It felt good for a split second, but then my whole arm was stinging. I threw the scissors in the back of a draw, and tried to calm down.

Tonight, I showed my mum the scratches and she was horrified. She felt guilty because I explained this happened after our argument. She made me promise to never do it again, and I promised. And I really mean it. I felt so stupid, and now I feel like she will never trust me again. She said she's going to be checking my arms from now on.

I've been quite sad for a while because of family issues, but this was the last straw, and I feel so disgusted with myself. I have also been under a lot of stress because of school, and I failed a paper a couple of months ago, which really made me upset.

I just wanted to know if there are any ex-cutters out there who have given up, and life is a little bit better.

Thank you, and thanks for reading my rant.