Long time lurker, first time poster. Doing this for the most important person in my life... my wife.

To my darling wife,

This is the first time I've actually posted on nofap. You know I've always been a casual browser but I've never been an active user.

The same can be said for the 90 day challenge. I've tried before and usually I get to a week before cracking. Longest I've gone is just under two weeks, but never given it a serious effort.

I know you are sad and have been so ever since the miscarriage. I know how difficult it has been getting pregnant. I know that you feel like as you are getting older you fear we might never have a child.

I am trying to remain optimistic but it's getting harder to inspire the same in you.

But I want to complete the nofap challenge for YOU. I want to show you that sometimes things that seem impossible are achievable. I want everyone on nofap to see this and help me stay open, honest and accountable for my actions. I aim to provide a progress report each week, which you can read.

This gesture has little to do with reseting my brain, improving our sex life, or improving fertility, though those are added benefits. But I aim to complete nofap for another purpose: hope. I don't want you to give up hope. In fact, I refuse giving up hope. This struggle seems endless but we will keep fighting until we haven't a leg to stand on.

I love you with all my heart and I am willing to sacrifice what I can so that you will never lose hope.

Your husband,

Aintgivingup xx