i absolutely understand! healing is necessary, good for us and healthy, but it is often not that exciting, and we crave the toxicity. hope all gets better with you

This really resonates with me because of where I am in my life. A bit of a crossroads. After a lot of bad decisions and bad luck, I finally feel like maybe my life is starting to turn around, yet there's so much from my last still holding me back, and there's also one person from my last that I find myself thinking about constantly, wondering what she's doing with her life, how she is. When we were together it maybe wasn't the healthiest relationship, but we were young, and I feel like there was something there's some spark that I yearn for, but also one that I know might burn me if I were to actually catch it. Thank you for sharing!

I really like this, the structure and simplicity
Bravo

thank you so much, that is so kind! i am glad you enjoyed it :)

The transition between the stanzas are literally perfect, the first one showing the outside of you, like what the other minds would perceive of you, the second one being about the absolute belief being held at the back over your mind. The poem is simple yet it feels like hugging yourself to get some self warmth

that is so so sweet, thank you so much!! <3

ouch, heartbreakingly beautiful. ‘i would burn my self love books’ is so powerful, suggesting that you’d ruin yourself for someone else and i know that feeling all too well. you should be so proud of this, utterly gorgeous.


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The title of your poem grabbed me and I had to read it. Really enjoyed this. This personifies toxic love. Can’t wait to read more!

i’ve been learning to make peace with myself

i don’t change the girl i am

i can shush the hungry men away

i know to say no and stay

only true to my way


but.


you.


i miss your unwell.



if you said the word

if you gave me a look

i would puke back all the pills i took

i would burn my self-love books

you are the only exception, my weakness

you are what killed achilles 



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