mommy

04/13/2022 - 12:23am

why do i cry when i say i love you?

it must be real and deep and unseen or undiscovered

it is pure and pink like a freshly born child

untouched by imperfection or stain.

but it mustn’t be that way

because i am, no, we are too young and too childish and too foolish.

why must i cry as i utter such emotion?

does it pain me?

after so many loving lies

the ‘i love you’ and squeeze like it’s a formality,

like it’s a transaction of necessity

i only love you because you need me to.

you will not allow me to continue without it.

if i don’t love you, will i be yours?

would i be part of you if not for love?

would i be forgotten?

i have to i need to i must love you

who would i be without my love i have been commanded to give unwillingly?

an unspoken promise of loving forever no matter what through anything and everything.

i must be unfaithful.

you are my one tether to the world,

the one that brought me here.

my loving and admirable parent,

thank you

for soiling my love.

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side note:

• it’s better in dark mode

• i hate reddit margins

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