Did I make the wrong choice?

I went to visit my girlfriend last weekend for the first time since we became long distance. For the moment I hit the road, guilt hit me like a truck because I thought I was invading her space even though she asked me to visit her. When I was about thirty minutes out, she called and said she was going to hang out with friends even though I was close which made me feel even more guilty because I didn’t want to take her away from her friends. The next day, we go out with her friends to a bowling alley and everyone is asking how everyone else is doing but no one is even making eye contact with me, and I start having anxiety so bad I have an anxiety rash on my chest and she notices. I tell her I feel guilty for being there and she just pushes it off and tells me it’s okay. The next day I found out she lied about having a friend over alone that I have been having anxiety about (bad trust issues that I have been working on since we became long distance) and I brought it up and she just said she “forgot”.. I broke down from explosive anxiety from feeling guilty about being there and feeling like I wasn’t liked by her friends while also feeling betrayed because of her lies and broke up with her.. but now I’m starting to feel regretful. I’m not in a good head space and have been trying to fight depression for so long.. I was in a mental facility last year because of it. I feel that my anxiety and self hatred clouded my judgement and made me take this impulsive decision to break up with her. She has been the first person to love me deeply but I couldn’t find the energy to trust her and love myself. I don’t know what to do…