I can’t drink alcohol without using cocaine?

Sorry new here, not sure how this works. I can’t drink alcohol without instantly wanting cocaine. Used to have a really bad cannabis problem and overcame that this year. Last year made an attempt on my own life and was lucky to survive but I can’t seem to shake this particular monkey off my back. Looking for anyone who can talk from experience. I don’t drink a lot, more of a once every week or two but always binge drink when I do and then instantly want to take cocaine. Need help.