i need help

i know i’m only 13 but i’m just over this bullshit. I’m tired. I wanna just be happy and not be drained all the time. I don’t wanna me made fun of because of my size. I can’t even get a relationship. every time we break up they always say something like “it’s not you” or something along the lines of that bs. i’m just tired. and quite frankly i don’t wanna live the shitty life i’m living. it’s not like i even can bring myself to kill myself. i’m too much of a pussy. and yeah i know i’m only 13 and some of you might be whining abt it but idgaf.

-mystic