Does any other asexuals feel the need to sexualize themselves?

I have never had sexual attraction, I don’t desire for sexual relationship or sexual attraction. Yet my entire life I have felt the pressure to be sexualized. I think normalization of hookups or clubs by society. They’re so normal, same with sex. As I feel I can’t like a naked body with it out being sexual. NSFW content feels like the best way to vent. Art, songs, or smut (of two other people) are things that I feel help me confront these feelings of mine. But as soon as I’m not feeling it back to something like porn it is. It also feels like I can’t enjoy these things with asexual. Not to also mention, only one person has liked me, I didn’t like him back. I was 8 he was 16, he only wanted me for sexual stuff. He one time tired to make me kid his friend. It’s always made me think “When I get I girlfriend, will she only want me for sex?” I also had a friend group of boys that only saw me as a “sexy woman”. Sorry for the long vent, but i just want to know if anyone else feels this way? I just don’t want to be alone.