Disassociation is the worst thing ever

At first it was very simple zoning out, and casual, "oh my mind slipped". But now it's one minute I'm here and the next I'm somewhere totally different in the middle of doing something. It's affecting my ability to talk to people irl, although I genuinely don't think it's very noticeable I think that it's part of what's making me feel this loneliness. I don't have a sense of who I even am anymore and at this rate I give up on knowing. It feels like I'm surrounded by this film that I can see through but can't get past, like im listening through this thin barrier but the words aren't reaching they are touching me, what connects me with the outside just isn't clicking anymore.