is not breastfeeding that serious?

FTM and I really do not want to breast feed. it’s probably selfish reasons because we’ll I didn’t even want to be pregnant and the thought of finally getting my body / life back after 10 months and then having to continue to give up certain habits/lifestyle to breastfeed I don’t want to at all ?? my mom told me she didn’t breast feed me and I feel like im fine lmao, but people who breastfeed or promote it make me feel like it’s life changing or im neglecting my baby if I don’t.

like FUCK I want sushi, I want a glass of wine and I want facial filler /botox and micro blading and all these things you can’t have breast feeding. but I don’t really want to feel like me not breastfeeding is me changing my child’s brain or future or potential either. I want to be the best mom I can be, but I also want to be me and not give up my lifestyle and identity more than I already am with pregnancy.

what are your thoughts?