r/OCPoetry•4 yr. ago

Mourning

Poem

i keep dreaming that i'm at my father's house

night after goddamn night

and its usually just me , sitting on the couch while he watches his old WWII documentaries

or in the passenger seat, as his music plays

and my mind is empty of everything that has happened

and the day is just a day

when i'm dreaming, i'm not thinking about the end of it all

and i can still look at him and see a person

flawed and mean

but i stay, and i love him

cause i'm back when loving him worked

and i don't remember why this is so wrong

why it's so evil

i am never coming back from this

i was always meant to be purged

i'm gods last meal

i'm my own disease

i'm losing my fucking mind

someone call me

after I have told you everything

someone please call me

how do you mourn someone who never existed?

i hope i don't fuck it up

Posted Sep 10, 2022, 5:49 AM UTC