Why is this so complicated

So my friend took my phone and followed my crush on Insta. Now im scared to open the app cause i feel like he won't accept me. He's one of my cousin's best friend, i went out once with his friend group and he was also there. He didn't talk to me at all and I also didn't cause I'm really shy. Anyways at that time i only thought he's attractive but I didn't like him. Then one day i went out with my friends and we sat at the same place. He was right ahead of me so i kept looking and idk if i was delusional or blind but we made small eye contacts. Like he wasn't too far away so I don't think i saw wrongly???😭 idk i feel delusional. Then when we went to eat to another place right after HE ALSO WENT THERE TO EAT. ISN'T THAT DESTINY??????? Then i searched him on Facebook and noticed that WE'RE ALREADY FRIENDS???????? I searched and he was the one who sent me a friend request... Back in 2019💀💀💀💀 There's no way im gonna say anything to my cousin cause im embarrassed... I hope he doesn't say anything like "yo your cousin followed me" and then he comes to me and asks why did you follow my friend cause i know i will be obvious.... ugh. I kinda regret letting my friend take my phone and follow him. I don't know why i make it so complicated cause a follow is just a follow... I won't be obvious... Right??? And if he doesn't accept it won't be the end of the world right??? I already got rejected 2 times this summer so what's once more💀