This is not a good poem

I write this without thinking

I write this because I don’t know what else to do

I write this because I come back home at 5:30 a.m. driving around town by myself without the music on

I write this because after all these years my heart is still alone

I write this because it bleeds out of me

I write this in a bedroom that suffocates me

I write this because the moment I come back to this house I want to leave

I write this because this house has no love

I write this because I’m alone

I write this because I feel like I’m losing hope

I write this in search of something I don’t even know

I write this with a heavy mind and a heavier heart

I write this because it’s weighed me down

I write this but it still doesn’t take the edge off

I write this with a cigarette in my hand

I write this without alcohol because if I did there would be no end to it

I write this carrying a curse

I write this to curse myself further

I write this because I’m unable to talk to anyone

I write this with the sunlight coming up and it terrifies me

I write this because I want to sleep and wake up when everything is alright

I write this because I can’t stop

I write this not for your opinion

I write this not for your criticism

I write this not for your sympathy

I write this simply because it’s bleeding out of me

I write this to end a shit day

I write this knowing I won’t be able to sleep

I write this not knowing what to do next

I write this knowing only the next line

I write this and Reddit is lagging

I write this because I heard about Iran today

I write this indifferent to injustice

I write this because I feel numb

I write this because I don’t care

I write this because there was a life for me

I write this because I’m still chasing it

I write this because earlier on the highway the car slowly turned towards oncoming traffic - the steering wheel in my hands but not in my control

I write this because I see the headlights closing towards me

I write this because I don’t mind it

I write this because I want them to take me out

I write this because I didn’t let them

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