totga na 2months

(wlw) it was just 2months, and currently 7months na yung nakalipas nung she ended things between us. do you know how stupid i feel na 2months lang yun and ang haba na ng panahon na lumipas but im still hang up. so eto, im doing this shit.

she was the first person na i truly felt connected with. sobrang vulnerable ko sakanya, i showed her the side of me na di ko mapakita sa mga friends kong years ko ng kilala. we have similar traumas especially when it comes to our family situation kaya siguro na let down ko agad yung walls ko sakanya. in those 2months sobrang dami nyang naparealize sakin and i will never regret meeting her.

then one day, ayun it ended. it was so sudden, but i understood her reason kaya dumistansya ako. after a couple of months nag paramdam sya and she gave me the chance to ask her questions kasi nga ang sudden nung decision nya but she caught me off guard kasi 'di ko inexpect na mag paparamdam ulit sya kaya ayun kunwari bumalik na yung angas ko, and tbh i dont have questions im just glad na she's okay na. but i wasn't honest about how it felt. in those 2months she was my world. yung sudden decision nyang yun it made me question everything.

i try to talk to other people pero i keep catching myself searching for what we had. i cant help but to compare her to every person i talk to and its exhausting. 'di na ako nag try na bumalik kami sa dati nun kasi advance ako mag isip and i cant wrap my head around na theres a chance na ill lose her again. she's with someone else na, and i'm so happy for her. pero for some reason i'm stuck at this place and i hate it. it was just two fucking months.