Jealous bc of friend

I know that sounds so dumb but I’m so jealous of my friend bc he gets so much attention for losing weight. I should the person people care about I’m so mad that no one asked how I’m doing they just care that my friend lost so much weight and they only check on him if he is eating. When I lost weight and was nearly dying NO ONE CARED. I should look for myself to get healthy but I only check on him and I’m so mad fuck