Nighttime

Turning on the lights, and entering this room, it's not home, it's not perfect, it’s not enjoyable, but it's a room. Walking towards the edge of the bed and falling asleep at 8 in the afternoon, waking up to this ringing sound, this alarm, that must tell a person to wake up, this alarm is that dictator. Being able to shut it off is one, but being able to live without it is another, is it discipline? Or is it rather having a normal schedule when falling asleep? Awake at 5 in the morning the quietness of the house is music to the ears, this may never happen again, so seize it, live while it's quiet, and enjoy this “alone time”. What is the difference between waking up early, and going to sleep late? Both are alone, both are not free, is that what sleep cost nothing, but sanity? Why not make that sacrifice? Why not spend the rest of this life alone, sleeping when desired, not hearing a noise, not having to worry, not having to stress, not having problems? Cause again is it not YOUR life?

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