I wrote this poem a few weeks back. How to make it sound less cheesy and what do you think is the meaning of this? I’m confused about why I wrote this. Any help would be really appreciated.

I'm not a good person,

just good at pretending.

I can lie with ease,

I’m good at manipulating.

I'm selfish, I never really loved,

I killed my emotional side

and here I am, cutting it's hide,

to wear it everywhere I go

and hide, in plain sight.

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