facilitated diffusion

I let myself think

that for a

mere

second,

I was

happy

truly, happy

but, like a butterfly

happiness is

fleeting,

okay?

​

we don’t want what we have

we want what we can’t have

but

is happiness too much to ask for?

​

Drowning out my

problems,

subconsciously putting on

a shield

a protective film

a semi-permeable membrane

that only allows for the diffusion

of pain.

permeable to my

solitude

loneliness

fear,

but impermeable to

glee.

​

I never needed you like I do right now.

​

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