should i kill myself

okay well i’m an 18 year old girl but everyone around me seems to hate me and i’m literally miserable everyday. i feel like the universe is telling me that i shouldn’t be here. i literally found a noose in my closet that i didn’t even put there so i feel like i should, i already wrote the notes to my family and everything. should i just do it right now? you don’t have to pity me with the nooo your life is so valuable!! just listen to my story and lmk what you’d do if you were in my shoes thank you