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Farrix

I'm nervous about feeling good now.

My doctor started me on Depakote and Celexa after having come to the conclusion that I may have Bipolar 2. I'll admit, after having been on the medication for about a week that I have noticed what I would call an improvement in my ability to handle triggers without slipping into a deep depression, only instead having a mild panic attack that I was able to recover from within a day and a half or so.

My new problem is right now I feel like I'm back on the upswing. I'm nervous that I'm going to end up back in a manic stage, feel great, and then crash back out of it instead of staying in that median line between depressed and manic. It shouldn't make me anxious to feel good and this is not only annoying but also concerns me.

So, I guess I'm asking you to share with me your experience with this. Will it ever feel normal again to feel good?

Posted Aug 23, 2012, 6:58 AM UTC

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bemo12•

I think this is normal. The people I know with bipolar always seem worried that they are going into one stage or the other based on their emotions. It's almost like being afraid to have normal emotions anymore because we don't want them to go too far.

I know you will feel good again, though.

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MelissaGinnJrBipolar 1•

I totally relate to what you said. I've been diagnosed bipolar for 11 years now (on meds for only a year and a half though) and also had a fight with bulimia. Now, I'm not purging and for the most part I take my meds every day, I also have an amazing boyfriend and a very cool job. And I am very happy. But in the back of my mind, like when I can only seem to get a few hours of sleep because my brain is going at 350 mph, which still happens occasionally, meds are not perfect, I worry what it would be like to manic in this nice little set up I have myself in. If all of this is kind of manic in its own right. I think that's a question we all kind of wonder.

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I_am_God_really_I_amBipolar 2•

No big insight/recommendations here since I was just diagnosed with BP2 a month ago and started on Lamictal on top of the Prozac and Buspar that my family doctor put me on for "depression." I have the same fears. I feel so much better after being on the Lamictal than i EVER did on anything else. Just left my shrink's office 2 hours ago and she reassured me that a "mood stabilizer" (similar to what you are on) are not intended to make us into zombies but to free us from the grips of mania/hypomania which makes room for such foreign concepts as (I dare say) happiness and normalcy (what ever normal is).

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