Run to the cross. Run to Christ. Ask Him for help. You need Him to fix you. 

Read His Scriptures even if its a Chapter a day. 

Pray daily so you may hear and submit to God. 

Focus on Christ and He will center the rest.

You're right in your belief that God does exist.  But you are wrong in thinking that he wants nothing to do with you.  He made you and knows everything about you, including what's best for you.  

What's best is to turn to him, confess your sins, ask forgiveness through faith in Jesus and then accept that forgiveness and begin again.  Make an appointment with a chaplain at school or a pastor at a Bible believing church.

God is waiting with open arms.  

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whosoever believes in him shall not perish, but have eternal life.  John 3:16

I will pray for you right now then I will advise.

I believe faith comes first, then good works will follow. But we can only believe in Jesus to be saved, our good works count for nothing when it comes to salvation. That's why Jesus says that even when we have done all that He has commanded, we should call ourselves "unprofitable servants".

Perhaps it's worth considering what that academic belief has, and has not, done for you. Jesus has 4 gospels of instruction; is there any chance there may be more to it than that?

> I had to lay down my life.

Jesus says in the Bible to just believe on Him.

Amen. Most have no idea what they're missing.

>I had to lay down my life.

This is what happened to me too! I grew up in church over 20 years not growing closer to Christ at all.  Struggled with sexual sin the entire time, my conscience was really messed up.  It was after I was truly, finally willing to submit everything that I began to grow spiritually.  Then I finally began to understand what everyone was talking about when they talked about God's love.

I had to lay down my life. That was the acceptable offering, my ruined life. I finally cried out with my whole heart. I finally gave up and said please live for me, I don't know how. And I ate very little and read a pile of scripture, and while reading Isaiah I perceived Him, and cried out to Him, and He answered and baptized me with His Spirit.

Baptism is burial with Christ, and cant be completed until you lay down your life. Then you may participate in His resurrection.

I believe in you, Christ be with you.

I was once like you, convinced that I couldn’t turn back to The Most High because of my awful sin of lust, but that’s a trick of the enemy. There is nothing you’ve done that He can’t forgive. You’re still alive, talk to Him, and be honest. He is so faithful and kind and full of compassion. Read His Word and ask Him to transform you, He will do it! Trust Him. 

If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1John 1:9

Psalm 51:10-19

10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.

11 Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.

12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.

Matthew 19:26 Jesus looked at them intently and said, “Humanly speaking, it is impossible. But with God everything is possible.

Lots of Romans definitely came to mind for me, as well. Romans 7 to show us the depravity we are all born into, and Romans 8 revealing that we are under no condemnation when we are in Christ Jesus and walk in the Spirit, not in the flesh.

>Romans 5:6-11 When we were utterly helpless, Christ came at just the right time and died for us sinners. Now, most people would not be willing to die for an upright person, though someone might perhaps be willing to die for a person who is especially good. **But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners.** And since we have been made right in God’s sight by the blood of Christ, he will certainly save us from God’s condemnation. For since our friendship with God was restored by the death of his Son while we were still his enemies, we will certainly be saved through the life of his Son. So now we can rejoice in our wonderful new relationship with God because our Lord Jesus Christ has made us friends of God.

Read His Word.
Pray.
Go to church. Connect with local Christians.
The more you do, the more you'll want to do.

Romans 5:6 For when we were yet without strength, at the due time Christ died for the unGodly.
5:7 For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet perhaps for a good man some would even dare to die.
5:8 But God commendeth His love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.

It's not impossible to overcome the temptation to sin. Jesus proved that but he was armed with faith and truth. You need to arm yourself likewise.  

According to the Bible temptation is caused by sin dwelling in you, in your bodily members. Sin produces the lusts that are in opposition to your efforts to do what will make it possible for you to be reconciled to God. 

James 1:13 Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted by God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth He any man:
1:14 But every man IS tempted, WHEN he is drawn away by his own lust, and enticed (seduced by Satan - into doing wrong).
1:15 Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when

Find a good campus fellowship. Get connected with other believers your age.

That's a wonderful explanation. Thank you for sharing it. God bless.

> I highly doubt he wants anything to do with me after all the things I’ve done.

He sent his son to the cross because he wants you. He knows all the things you've done and all the things you will do. But he still loves you and wants you as one of his children. 

> I accepted Jesus into my heart once, but my life never changed because I just can’t change, I’m stuck in a hole of sin and I just can’t get out. 

You're right. You are stuck in a hole of sin. We all are in this fallen world, cursed with sinful hearts that we are born with. 

But the love, grace and promise of Christ is that this world and our sinful nature isn't all that there is. There is new life and a new self ahead of you. But, yeah, sanctification is long, slow process. 

And that is hard. You are not alone in feeling lost and helpless. 

What you are feeling is that craving to be intimately connected, in harmony, with our creator--like threads in fabric. It's our nature, our essence, our being. Without God, without ha

Find a quiet place and be still.  Know that he is there.

This is exactly what God knew it would take for you to finally accept the Blood of Jesus. 

So, repent of your sin. Cry out to God to forgive you. You will be forgiven. 

When you have these concerns and thoughts. Capture them and hand them in prayer seeking escape. Seeking God's will. Protection and guidance. Ask Him if there is anything not of Him that it be rebuked and removed from your life.

Then read and do this... [https://ourkingdomculture.com/the-sinners-prayer/](https://ourkingdomculture.com/the-sinners-prayer/)

Praying for you. 

After you do this. From now on when going on the computer use it to grow in Christ. Do a Bible study, or listen to a sermon.

Realize that God is spirit, and is imperceptible physically, you just have to believe he is there.  And that he is close by and wants to hear from us.
Realize that we are all sinners, and that our flesh is incapable of doing anything that pleases God,short of the spirit of God.  
Then realize that Jesus took care of that sin by nailing it to the cross.  It's no longer an issue for God now because Jesus took care of it.  Even though we don't have any sign or evidence, we need to take it on faith that it is taken care of and we have God's grace.  God loves you more than you could know.  Trust him that he took care of it, and it doesn't have to do with you or your good behavior.  Nothing can separate you from his love, be thankful for that.

- 1 John 1:8-10 (KJV)
8 If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us.
9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
10 If we say that we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.

Thanks for bringing up the practical side, it's important!

Other people have addressed the spiritual aspect so I'm going to focus on the physical. Addictions work on multiple fronts, physically, mentally, and spiritually. With that in mind you should fight it on all these fronts too. Don't make it easy to get your fix. Habits aren't made in a day and they aren't broken in a day either. Be prepared for it to take time. I think it's also good to slowly scale back on the addictions. Take a hard stand against them one out of every three days and work your way up at your own pace. You're not supposed to ace it every single time so don't be discouraged if/when you flop. The goal isn't a perfect score so much as to build your tolerance and wean your body off of the porn/alcohol dependency.

You need to accept Jesus as your saviour.
You do not need need to do any ritual / sacrament / works / changing your life / stopping sins etc.

You come as you are to Jesus first , realise he paid for your sins on cross 2000 years ago and all of your sins were in future , therefore you had all past/future sins forgiven so you go to heaven when you die.

It is gift of God not based on your works / obedience.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wh1VU-_OF98

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As for changing your behaviour , everyone is sinner and struggles with sins , you will sin untill you die but you should not abuse God's grace to sin because it will cost you alot. Whatever you do in your body while you're alive , be it good or bad you get for it reward or punishment.

If you do good (preach gospel to unbelievers / feed homeless / clothe poor / help sick etc) then you get reward for it.

If you restrain your flesh to not sin , you get paid daily wages for it so try to for

Please read the section known as the prodigal son

Believe it or not, you’re going to keep sinning even as a Christian. Maybe you’ll do a bit better, but you’ll always be a sinner. “For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him.” - Psalm 103:11. He absolutely wants to hear from you.

Ask Him to reveal Himself to you. Remember romans 8:1 now there's no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus.  
John 3:16 for God so loved the world that he gave his only son so that everyone who believers in him shall have eternal life and never perish.

Sin sin sin, we hate sin and I've had it up to here with sin too. Remember "it is what it is" you'll sin no matter how badly you try. ask God to forgive you and move onwards while improving on not making the same sin again and again.

Read your Bible! God gave us the instruction manual that tells you everything you need to understand about him and what he expects from you. You have a choice to know or not its up to you, he never said it would be easy, actually he tells you its going to be hard.

Sound advice, even I will harking to it. Many won’t agree with you because it might hurt their feelings.

You're not addicted to porn and drinking. You choose to do that.

You're not helpless. You see the problem so fix it. You can't change if you don't believe you can. 

Stop doing those things. Repent for your sins. Study the Bible and dedicate your life to God. You have to take action before God will. Seek and you will find Him.

So, I was raised Christian, but I left as soon as I graduated high school, I wanted nothing to do with it. My life is terrible, I’m addicted to porn and drinking, I’m in university but my marks are terrible because I have no motivation to do anything. I believe God exists, but I don’t know how to find him and I highly doubt he wants anything to do with me after all the things I’ve done. How can I fix my life? How can I find God? I accepted Jesus into my heart once, but my life never changed because I just can’t change, I’m stuck in a hole of sin and I just can’t get out. What do I do?

I’m so lost and helpless