The guilt consumes me

As time goes on

Your love for me only seems to grow

Your piercing blue eyes stare into my soul

Pining for what we could have been

Pining for more

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I wish I could say I felt the same way

I can't handle love anymore

When someone starts feeling too much for me, I want to run

I want to distance myself from the affection

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It was nice at first to be liked

but as the days go on

I feel the uncomfortableness setting in

I really wish it wouldn't

But I fear it's already here

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I hear the voice in my head telling me to run

It gets louder every day

I try to ignore it but this feeling is getting

too hard to shake

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I want to love you like you love me

I wish I could be your partner

I wonder if my original feelings were ever real

Was I stringing you along?

Was I just so desperate to not be alone

that I made everyone think we were meant to be

Even convincing myself for a time

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I am in too far deep now

There's no way that you are getting out of this unscathed

I will hurt you, i probably already am

And for that I am so sorry

I am hurting you like so many before have hurt me

The abused becomes the abuser

Isn't that what they always say?

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I just can't handle being loved anymore

It brings me more discomfort than almost anything

So now your haunting gaze scares me

It's so intense and I just can't

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I want to run and hide

Please let me run and hide

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I know I wont run

Because I know what it feels like to be left behind

But if you notice my distance

Here's the reason why

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