I will always be yours

It’s snowing again in our small town

and as cold as I am,

it’s the thought of you that warms me.

•

You hate me, you always have,

but I can’t hate you back.

I don’t know why,

there’s just nothing there for me to loathe

despite how much I try.

•

I saw you this morning

eyes sunken and green

hands clammy and cold

and I felt a punch to my stomach.

Just looking at you makes me sick

with want, with pain, with love.

But it’s nothing compared to how it felt

to have your hands on my chest

late last night.

•

You don’t know what I would do

to feel that just once more.

I know you’ll never want me

you’ll never know the knives in my chest

the tears in my eyes

when I look at you, lovelorn

through rose colored glasses.

But I thought I’d tell you anyway

even if you won’t be mine

I will always be yours.

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So this is actually a poem I wrote to include in a fanfic I am writing. The writer is 18 years old, but I am in my mid 20s. Critical feedback is much appreciated! Thank you!

EDIT: it wasn’t appearing correctly before for some reason. The single dots I have inserted are supposed to separate each stanza, because it wasn’t allowing me to do that before with just spacing.