My NMom is getting what she deserves and I feel bad.

My NMom groomed an 18 year old when she was 43 and still married to my Dad. He even lived with us as her “office assistant”. Once she had him isolated and compliant, she then left my father. To make her feel better about it, when I was 18 she pressured me into dating her friend who was also a narcissist who coerced me into giving him my virginity. She loved all of my exes because I dated narcissists because I didn’t know any better. After my last ex cheated on me and left me for the new guy, she blamed me for being abused because “you stayed with him.” So I finally went NC as part of my recovery process from my last relationship and haven’t had a boyfriend since. I’m doing much better now, but she’s mad that I don’t talk to her.

Well, her younger husband (who is actually a pretty cool guy) finally came out of the closet and started meeting new people. He left her ass so she moved next door to her brother and they get drunk and high every day. She called my brother on thanksgiving to tell him she was going to slit her own throat but her brother stopped her. I laughed it off, but part of me feels bad. This is why I was a banquet for narcissists for so long. But I have no plans of ever initiating contact again. But there will always be that hurt child inside of me that just wanted to have a good relationship with his mother, but now knows he can’t and never will.