A Cry for Help in Solitude

So much pressure on me they don’t even know I’m all alone, I Gotta figure it out on my own I’m fake cuz I don’t wanna party, rather build a home Mama still struggling slaving everyday, I know her body tired Still can’t find a break, I just want her to retire My papa still gotta work cuz his kids are grown but still ain’t sure. Can’t seem to make shit stick Forsure I thank God everyday for the family I have, but still wonder every night why I feel alone Am I really alone ? Why I constantly find myself on my own ? Too much pressure on me, I can’t pick up the phone I gotta figure shit out, I don’t wanna party can you get that thru your dome ? Im still paper chasing cuz the money keep running away from me Tell me one day can I, will I be free? Released from the stress I just wanna live Ain’t no safety net for me, yet I still give Put everything else before myself just off a whim Now tell me how can I really win? When Papa tells me to love myself it’s the key to success but everytime I catch a glimpse of the mirror I hate what I see. Feel like this fake positivity is just a fantasy Built by faulty validation. Tell me I’m a wreck I ain’t even scared, the truth don’t make me fret. I am my biggest threat. I can’t seem to catch a break. So much pressure on me they don’t even know Climbed so far to see nothing. An empty view of desolate lands. Can you really blame me if I get mad? How are you? I’m okay just a tad bit sad cuz things are bad but im really glad you’re a happy lad. Life ain’t easy but it could be fun I just gotta get shit done Praying that my brain stays sane Wondering who’s to blame for all this pain Who put this plan on me filled with disdain I lay my head every night just to weep I need a team to lift me up, but always seem to find comfort in solitude . Guess it’s just my attitude . You can’t understand I have a bond with the darker things. I love the cold, the night and moon. I hope the end is soon. So much pressure on me, I don’t hope for doom. They don’t know so they misconceive I lay my head and weep cuz I believe I can succeed. One day this pressure shall be released.

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