Intrusive thoughts

Scary to post stuff like this, but I think this is the only place people would understand.

I don’t think I show a lot of of outward symptoms of OCD, but the intrusive thoughts and anxiety are REAL.

Anyone else struggle with whether or not to tell people about the intrusive thoughts you are having.

I have zero desire to do any of the things that I think and I hate everything about it, but I can’t stop all of the awful thoughts from popping in to my head.

I would like to talk it through with some friends and family, but I can’t see an outcome where they don’t think that I am not a terrible person and a sicko. I don’t know if there is a way to truly convey that I have absolutely no desire to carry anything out, but if I am disgusted with myself, how can I expect anyone to understand.

I don’t align with any of these thoughts and it honestly just feels like my brain is trying to sabotage me.

Any thoughts or advice or just reassurance that I am not alone/a terrible person?