Edit: someone has been listening to me. E got herself her first possession charge a while back and she just told me she has to go clean for the next year due to outpatient rehab.
I had some clean time under my belt until "E" came back into my life. She's the type of addict that uses every day just to maintain and I'm the type that can't be in the same room as it because I have no boundaries and will gladly accept it whenever offered. And now my clean time is hours.. not months and I fucking hate it. I want healthy relationships and clean time. Not this bullahit I'm living now. Surprised I haven't lost my job yet. NA didn't work for me.. counseling isn't working for me... inpatient would
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