These are the facts, and unless I get it down to at most twice a month my life is going to continue this downward spiral. Yesterday I had a great day, stuck to my schedule, and got everything done. Sober. So I decided to reward myself at the end of the day not with meditation and a good book, but with pot and some good ole Dota 2 (video games). The 2 hours I planned for relaxing at the end of the day turned into 7 FUCKING HOURS! And I was up until 4am getting high as hell and playing games. It was sort of fun, but here I am the next day, groggy, sleepy, bored, unproductive, and already out of time in the day to get done what I need to get done. I hate this. All I want is to follow my schedul