Dojanetta

I just really don’t want anyone to get involved in a way that cause problems. Btw I’m not in any sort of physical danger.

Would they try anything like falling cps on my sibling?

Or would that not happen since most of their needs are being met except for like emotional?

Idk I’m just a bit paranoid lol.

I feel like my only cure is the obvious one which is to make irl friends. But the cult bars me from that. I don’t know how to be a normal person anymore my socials skills are just in the gutter. I try to make friends at school it never leads to anything. And the ones that do end up being totally incompatible because they’re homophobic or something else weird. I feel so infantilized because I have to sneak around to have real friends.

I’m trying to get a job to increase my chances but no luck so far. I’m just tired if waiting, tired of not having any friends.

And because of this I keep flunking out of school. I know the solution to my problems but I can’t ever get it in motion. I’m stuck

Why can’t I just focus myself on school instead, why can’t I do something productive, why do I only realize it in hindsight, why do I care so much what others think, how do I stop caring so I can help myself?

If I didn’t care I wouldn’t feel this way. Why am I so impatient that I prolong my suffering?

Trigger warning I’m talking about pedophiles and moleststion.

It seems like she’s random when it comes to bending the JW rules and her thoughts on certain doctrine.

So I got caught registering to vote but the reaction was very minimal. It was best case scenario, a scenario that I didn’t even consider was possible. She was actually very interested in voting. Asked me questions about voting and said she wished she could vote. Think I might vote next time now that I can confirm the consequences are low.

Her views on homosexuality are really confusing. My cousin came out to her and she seemed totally accepting to her face. But then she tried to out her to my grandma and then later on confi