FatalPrototype

I remember the ambiance. I remember the feelings. They are slowly coming back. I'm not exactly what I used to be. But my god. Now the music of my life is back. Some people don't realize it, but while they're living, a music is constantly playing. This music is constantly changing. But it is almost always beautiful. You get connected to the real world because this music is engaging. And you are not trapped in your mind. That feeling disappeared from me. But sometimes I remember. While listening to the music I used to listen to. Or looking at games I used to play. Afterwards, I started to spread this feeling. I tried to remember more. I associated every object, smell and sound I saw with my ol

I opened the window and was startled by the coming wind. When I look around, I can feel that feeling. not too much. but still good. I haven't felt this way in a very long time. I haven't left the house for decades. only when i need it. And right now, I feel really different. I can feel that atmosphere. Like I said, not too much. but not zero. Now I can imagine more easily. I took cyproheptadine about three days ago. I bought it for my pssd. maybe i got some ed. It has increased my libido a bit but my penis is more numb, I still can't orgasm. but the feelings i have right now are very strange. I guess it just disappeared as I typed it. Could this be due to cyproheptadine? should i continue?

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but you should do this while watching the music video. I am using this music.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IxuEtL7gxoM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GbfeH6Q8PzY

Start the music video when you start the wim hof method. Even if it's for a few minutes, I guess you feel something because of the adrenaline.

Maybe not dopamine, maybe not serotonin. But it makes me feel good.

I have sensory disorders such as hearing loss, bad eyesight, Visual snow, loss of smell, Eustachian Tube Dysfunction, Tinnitus. Other than that, I'm overweight and I'm an extremely tired person. I am physically dead. When I Was a child, I was an extremely energetic person. But over time I got worse because of antidepressants and bad lifestyle. My intelligence has dropped, my mind has become fogged, I have become stupid. I have a persistent sexual disorder. I can't feel anymore. I can't feel the atmosphere. I can't feel the colors. I can't feel anything. I'm crying but I can't feel the sadness. Just anxiety and hatred. Most likely the antidepressants and antipsychotics left my brain permanent

I can even ejaculate very strongly. But I can't get orgasm. Or my penis is not much sensitive. Also, my libido is gone. I know it's PSSD. because I took too many drugs, and these caused anhedonia and pssd.

What can I do about this issue? Some receptors control different functions. I want to take cyproheptadine. But I don't know if it will reset all my serotonin receptors.

Sometimes I get so motivated that I think I can conquer the world. But I never enjoy it. An uneasy feeling drives me to do this. Especially when I listen to music. I don't know if my dopamine system is down. If my serotonin receptors are defective, how can dopamine be released? If dopamine can be released, why do I not feel happiness? So why do I still have the pssd? Shouldn't my serotonin receptors be defective?

I think they gave me pssd and anhedonia. Im 19 yo now. actually they didn't work very well. they just reduced my tourette syndrome a little bit. (tourette syndrome caused by concerta)
I feel extremely empty. I am experiencing derealization. It's like I'm about to pass out. women are not very beautiful anymore. I have this for a long time. they are all like stone statues. Even when I'm laughing, it's like I'm laughing out of anxiety. I get some cyproheptadine.

I also have an extremely high anxiety level. everything is in a fog. I don't know what to do. life is complex, colourless, blurry, suffocating and absurd. it's also not as intense. as if diluted with air.

I don't enjoy it most of th

I think they gave me pssd and anhedonia. Im 19 yo now. actually they didn't work very well. they just reduced my tourette syndrome a little bit. (tourette syndrome caused by concerta)
I feel extremely empty. I am experiencing derealization. It's like I'm about to pass out. women are not very beautiful anymore. I have this for a long time. they are all like stone statues. Even when I'm laughing, it's like I'm laughing out of anxiety. I get some cyproheptadine.

I also have an extremely high anxiety level. everything is in a fog. I don't know what to do. life is complex, colourless, blurry, suffocating and absurd. it's also not as intense. as if diluted with air.

I don't enjoy it most of th