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i recently got a new boyfriend and he really doesnt like the fact that i was friends with this guy let’s call him josh for the sake of the story. this guy josh and i used to be some kind of sex friends but only online i never saw him irl he asked me if anything had ever happened with him and i explained. i said that we stopped doing that a long time ago josh is one of the sweetest people i’ve ever met he’s helped me through so much but he’s still a guy i used to freak talk with idk what to do now i told him i would stop talking to him i have no idea why i did that when we started dating i told him i would never cut my friends for him but i still have a past with josh so i don’t know if my fe

like is this normal bc rn it’s even pretty warm outside and i’m in my bed jaw clenching and shaking should i go see a doctor

i did benadryl for the first time yesterday and i’m now sober bc i don’t have anything to take. i hate it im supposed to have molly in a few days and i just feel like im ruining my life. im only 16 i don’t know if its some kind of weird withdrawals i’ve been sober for a day and i already cant handle it. i’m just so mad at everyone all the time when im not on something i realize it and they realize it too. i don’t know where im going with this post i just want to know that im not alone.

it wouldn’t let me say talk🫩

idk if this helps but im a 15 year old girl trying to learn 😭

thank youuuuu

idk if this is the right place to say it but i recently realized that im an addict it’s like i’m addicted to being high i don’t care what i take i just don’t want to feel real im scared that one day ill find a substance ill really become addicted to and it’ll be like straight up heroin im only 15 and im already ruining my life

pls give me recommendations 😞 i wanna be a girls girl i like things like sinn6r rico ace snow strippers u get it help a girl in need