Tl;dr: Feeling alone/disconnected while I've got the world at my fingertips, and uncomfortable with prolonged contact. Is it me? What to do?
I'm not entirely sure if this is the right subreddit for this. Please let me know if it's not.
So it's Friday. Though I'm often introverted, Friday is the day I hang out with friends and drink beer at the pub. Today my friends had a party somewhere else, so I stayed at home, opened a bottle I got last year and put on an episode of Black Mirror.
If you know this show you know it highlights and exaggerates potential social dysfunctions in futuristic scenarios.
So after the episode ended I started thinking about digital social interaction. In the pas
I am making myself miserable.
Or that's what I suspect.
The symptoms
I regularly feel lonely, distant, not able to truly connect.
I regularly feel an emptiness, like I have no-one to really talk with.
I get jealous.
Whenever I have friends over, I feel the constant need to keep them entertained and well fed, because otherwise they'd leave. I myself never feel completely relaxed.
Actually, I can't remember a time when I was really relaxed, without a zillion thoughts going through my head, well not in my adult life anyway.
While logically I know I can do anything, I often feel bad about the things I still haven't done or done poorly. I also regularly have doubts about th