IsaiahBellville

Forgo the candles,
Just dig me a hole.
Forgo the presents, the well wishes and party,
And give me that which I’ve earned and deserve,
Forget me.

Release me from the chains inside your mind that bind me to that which exists because this has to be better than that which is without me,

Right?

This birthday song’s about another year gone by without a single righted wrong,
Another calendar in the trash with the same rash personality,
Another 12 months of stunted growth,
Over 300 days of waking up to the sound of my own heart shrieking,
A 27th tally on the board for the count I’m keeping,

One mark for every year I wish I could’ve gone without.

I was wrong to ever doub

Nights spent in Holy Bible Motel Rooms speak of secrets best not shared in front of children
 
 
Women
 
 
with pen names for stories written out on mattresses lie glossy eyed on soiled sheets

while men with insufficient wives

sow the fields of pleasure with false seeds

growing false needs

in the sandy soil of unfulfilled lives.
 
 
Plastic baggies full of communal Angel Dust bring believers closer to God

as blood trails part beneath the nostrils of Pilgrims seeking truth

Ruthlessly pursuing

the word of God that is spoken in
 
 
Tongues
 
 
that swell w

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