Automaton

A Steamcreep Story

AUTOMATIC TRANSCRIPT:

April fourth, nineteen eighty-two. My name is Everett Bradford. I am recording this tape journal to document a few things. 

I am a mechanical engineering student from the University of Bradshaw for Engineering, and for my final in Advanced Biomechanics three-twelve, we are pairing into groups and recreating a historical model of the automaton. Professor Cranshaw recommended a series of volumes in the library, but our group has branched out to find other studies on automatons. 

(A double cough can be heard). Excuse me.

I believe I am in possession of a series of tapes belonging to Cassidy Terrance, one of the pioneering name

One

And your skin, … your skin and bones

Turn into something beautiful

And you know, … I'd bleed myself dry

For you, I'd bleed myself dry

-Coldplay, “Yellow”

Two

The drive to the pizza shop in Hastings brought me beside the “mental compound”, as the locals called it. I even used to call it that at one point; the twenty-odd acres of land along State Route 22 was a common destination for pizza orders at my boss’s first location he owned, mostly for nurses during their lunch break. As I traveled to it more often, I slowly started to learn more about the history of this town, now dwindling in memory, alongside the r

Let us go then, you and I,

When the evening is spread out against the sky

Like a patient etherized upon a table;

-T.S. Eliot, "The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock."

One

I was always an orderly person. Everything had a place in the world; the laundry basket went on the other side of the night stand, the night stand next to my bed, my bed against the wall with another night stand on the other side of it. My desk across on the other side of the wall, bookshelves to the left of that, my television on top of the smaller one, the dresser I borrowed from my new roommate further down the spacious apartment. The closet at the opposite end of the room, and a love seat next to my tradin

Y'ALL... This is my current new favorite thing I've ever read (heard). Much like Isaiah, this is up there with House of Leaves for my best of modern literature. I hope the creator out there is well and stable, I don't imagine you can be writing something like this.

Hi y'all,

My partner recently delivered our beautiful daughter into the world. A friend asked kind of out of the blue if they were interested in possibly starting T to help counteract the beeg estrogen levels.

They were on T before, a few years ago, and the conversation coming back up has got both of us thinking. For me though, I want to make sure they'd be safe and healthy in order to go back on T only a few weeks after the delivery.

Anyone with experience is welcome to answer, not exactly sure if there's a lot of information out there about this topic specifically. Thank you all 🙏

Thinking of where/how I'm getting out of here..

So yeah my parents have known for about two months and this is the first time I've kind of figured out how to approach the rest of my siblings and hopefully they read the entire thing because its intention is to help me come out of the closet while also explaining in layman terms the importance of validation. I'm writing it in conjunction with some of my other friends and my parents will read it before I hand it to my siblings, I just need luck wished upon me to finish drafting to share with the parents.

I (MtF) started having dysphoria over everything in my life around the time I hit puberty, I experienced all the signs, but I'm a fairly late bloomer in terms of my identity. Only within the past month have I seriously been looking at my past and synthesizing my experiences and basically realizing I'm a woman stuck in the wrong body.

Now that the background is out of the way, the political stuff.

This is my last semester as a student teacher before graduating and being certified in Pennsylvania to teach 7-12 grades. Having considered my past and identity issues (with worsening dysphoria on a D20 effect for the day), I've already been dealing with teachers and students addressing me with ma