Longjumping-Rope-237

TW: addiction, family violence, drugs

On Saturday I decided for yet another LSD solo session, my body asked me for it. There were two major insights.
1.i allowed myself to grief for my mother, she left in 2004 in my 18. I suppressed all the years those emotions for loss and during this session I was allowed to release some of it what I should have done already in 2004, but suppressed bcs big boys don’t cry. Revisiting me and mother at my 18 was not full of anxiety, it was actually sadness for loss. So I cried a lot.

2.after some time (LSD works terribly long) one event came to my mind and in the end I realised I sacrificed at age 8 part of my childhood and offered my space to my moth

So I had on Saturday my most intense solo session, where I discovered some things from my early childhood. Yesterday I was just walking on the beach and from time to time I got emotion eruptions and got wet eyes. As I tried go that feeling further, my body said no, not now.

Main insight was that I decided at age 8 to put a part of my childhood away and take over some adult problems in order to keep connection to my mother. Our family was malfunctioning with gambling and alcoholic father. I can now see why I behave now how I behave but actually I found “only” reason why is it. Not sure what to do, how to integrate. Maybe is also my observer back on duty and blocks again some directions.

I have probably tight pelvic muscles and buttocks. I am experiencing dull pressure on left side of my abdomen which travels. When I concentrate and relax the above mentioned muscles I notice partial relief. Not sure

Unable to read my eyes develop double vision. Huge drop from anxiety. Tryin to read but not possible my eyes don’t allow

When Reading i See how the Text Blocks move and have 3D structure. You nicknames Running away screen. LOL

My smoke detector goes without reason every plus minus 30 minutes on. So I dismantled it, disconnected the horn and placed on my desk to observe. Nothing changed.

Took this thing to my work and it doesn’t do anything no alarm over weekend. So what is the reason for it? It is not americium fueled unit.

If it would be dust, it wouldn’t change behaviour on my office

So as everyone knows they done it yesterday. I want now pick up apps not complaining this overwatch thing.

Only Signal and Session came to my mind not sure if they retract their products or not.

Looking for reliable and not expensive way to cut let’s say from 2m cylinder (d=6-7cm) exactly 20cm long pieces.

It should be cylinders between two plates, so I need exactly 90°

Got ESC cooling fan with 2 pole black connector and y cable (3-pole black male/female-only two wires connected). No position to wire to. Only idea is to put y cable to servo output but I guess fan would be powered only when you turn to side.

Another idea is to buy that t-connector to put it between battery and ESC.

Second question to another fan. It is with molex and connections on ESC is even smaller molex sort of connector. Dedicated for lights actually. Is there workaround without soldering things?

How Neurofunk DJs tag tracks to differentiate between different sorts of Neurofunk? I need some ideas.

State of mind isn’t t same sort like Teddy Killerz. Aggressor Bunx is not same like Ed Rush