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I actually stopped taking mesalamine at the start of this year because I transitioned fully to only being on the biologic infusion inflectra. recently (before last infusion, sept 23rd) my symptoms came back and I noticed even after the infusion some were still happening. I realized I still had a few bottles of pentasa so 5 days ago I started taking it again and since then I noticed bleeding in the morning and evening.. my question might be silly but is it a situation whwre it can look worse before it gets better? I really dont remember Is it better to stop taking it

I know people are going to say just ask my doctor but my doctors have been pretty unhelpful becauae they always refuse mainten

I’m unsure how awkward things will be now that Ive started to notice these feelings. I dont think Ive made anything obvious especially since I struggle to make eye contact and voice my feelings there to begin with

I’m not delusional, I know its not mutual. Plus my therapist is married so I feel extra bad and weird about saying anything. I know its probably transference but Ive never had feelings for a therapist so it honestly just feels like a regular crush

I think I first noticed it when one day he asked to make direct eye contact with me for a short period of time and said that its a form of intimacy… hes just so kind and gentle, and makes me feel like an actual human being, obviously h

TW i mention eating and weight related stuff

Thursday I calculated change wrong in my head and the lady laughed at me and shook her head and I felt dumb and awful. The next day (yesterday) I was scolded at work for messing up, and my manager basically said I was the reason our score was low today and I genuinely cried and panicked for the rest of the day (to myself)

Ive been in such an awful mindset ever since, havint spirals that focus on the things my OCD focuses on the first one was at 3 am I woke up to my cat puking and didnt sleep after being terrified she has some sort or serious illness. A few hours into the morning, I had another panic attack over a fear of having done something il

Id like to get over this Its at a point where I only interact with people minimally because I expect to be hurt or disrespected

Example I was calculating change in my head for a customer and said the wrong number and this older lady laughed and shook her head and pulled out a receipt to start explaining it to me slowly as if I’m the dumbest person alive. I get this awful feeling like I’m someone or something less than human and I feel both sad, overwhelmed and angry and it usually can mess up my whole mood

I just want to handle it better somehow

I dunno if the creators are here but I’d love this feature A page where we can view our shared links, and delete them say after we delete a chat or just dont want it shared anymore ChatGPT has this, but in my opinion Mistral is better at everything else

I’m 27F, with a college degree I’m not using and probably wont, currely working in both retail and food service.

I despise both. I enjoy work itself but these environments are a struggle mostly because of my mental illness but also physical (i have an autoimmune disease that flares often and the fatigue is what makes the jobs harder)

I would like a work from home job, part time, to make as much as I’m making right now working three days a week.. I dont really care what the job is as long as I dont need a specific degree obviously

But something in my life has to change because even just these three days in this enironment makes me go insane

I was diagnosed with depression (amongst other things) at age 10 I’m in my 20s now and basically in treatment ever since. Different events made my depression worse, but its sort of always there, I just have better times. But I used to be able to joke about it, to laugh, to cry when I felt said, to vent

Then my mom died (in february) and the reality didn’t even start hitting me until about a month ago when my car broke down and I thought to call her. I realized I could die, or just leave the country, and no one would notice for weeks or months and wouldn’t care because my mom was the one who loved me. lately the permanence has been hitting me hard and I realize I dont want a future even.

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I just got back from not working for a week and a half and it made me realize how much I dont actually hate the world, I just hate being forced to socialize and to do it a certain way. I hate having to hear about the boring lives of my coworkers nonstop, and them guilt tripping or ostracizing me when I just dont want to talk.

I really want a job where I just work and dont talk. I hate being asked “how are you “ by these people who 90% of the time talk shit and gossip. I hate their small talk and the energy it takes to engage with them. I dont care about your life, your relationships, your interests or whatever I’m tired of it all. I’m looking into working from home

So I’m a white woman and Ive had this friend for 5 years and shes always talking about how she hates white people, white women scare her, etc. I dont say anything because at first I thought it was funny and I guess I don’t want to be percieved as thinking it’s as harmful as systemic racism

Its not even that I find it offensive, just performative and annoying, and repetitive. She says she’d never date a white person, but has, also had a crush on one for over a year and at one point acted romantic towards me (LITERALLY DREW US AS ‘the kiss’ PAINTING.) It is annoying in one way because I feel I’ve been a really good and understanding friend to her and she’s just obsessed with talking about how

Most of the posts are just regular incels whining about being rejected by women and victim to their poor life choices. I’ve seen screenshots all over social media and I don’t understand why this form of pathetic self deprecating humor is funny to anyone, because to me it reads as not jokes, but rather people genuinely venting their frustrations under the guise of memes with photos of usually nasty food to highlight how absurd and unserious it is.

I don’t understand why if you want to vent, why not just do that. It all feels like a weird humilation ritual with misogynistic undertones, consdiering how often they cite women rejecting them as the source of their depression and referring to peop

I’m sharing this feeling because I hate that I have it, I think people deserve love and I wouldnt hate on them but Inside I feel so irritated and bitter Lately Ive been getting reels where it’s someone with a disability (a lot have been what i have- autoimmune, mental conditions) being cared for and they make it look so easy? and its like, what do you mean this person isn’t shaming you for it It’s not that I want them too I’m just really jealous, it could be played up for socia media but I almost cant wrap my mind around someone treating me with care around my disability instead of making fun of it or shaming it though I want it so bad, these literally feel like fictional people