Ok_Knowledge_7052

And how many people have you raped?

So I am about 1.5 months post-op and as chaotic as always. I am kind of overwhelmed with the info I got from the nurse (super strict, no sugar ever again etc.) and what I read elsewhere. Myself, however, seem to be doing just fine eating whatever, not feeling bad or anything unfortunately.

So I am mostly eating 3-4 times a day at pretty random times. I can easily eat like up to 300 g of food and usually eat about 200-300 g in total per meal. Usually around 900-1500 kcal per day. I try to do as much protein as possible, usually a minimum of maybe 60 g.

Does this seam too much/ too bad/?

I am ashamed of my trauma. At the same time, I just cannot keep it inside me any longer. I do not think most people will understand. It was not physical. It was not "real" in a sense. But I am struggling, I am suffering, there is no denying it. It has been about 20 years since it started. Online. And it stayed online. Only that for me, it spilled far beyond the online.

It must have been 2003 when this guy randomly messaged me on ICQ. Nothing special, happened all the time back then. Females my age will know.

For context, at the time I was sitting at home with crippling depression, I was supposed to have been in high school but my mental health made me take a break.

Anyway, this guy. Alt

I am so sorry, this will be long, it is a story that has been with me for half of my life.

I am ashamed of my trauma. I do not think most people will understand. It was not physical. It was not "real" in a sense. But I am struggling, I am suffering, there is no denying it. It has been about 20 years since it started. Online. And it stayed online. Only that for me, it spilled far beyond the online.

I guess I will try to get to the point (it is difficult to share even with strangers).

It must have been 2003 when this guy randomly messaged me on ICQ. Nothing special, happened all the time back then. Females my age will know.

For context, at the time I was sitting at home with crippling de